BLAH.

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Before anything, I would like to shout to the whole world how proud I am to be THE FAVORITE FRIEND of the author of this column Outsider no more, GUIA GALVEZ. Friend, I am very proud of you! Beyond what words can tell :*

Moving on, I have tons of things to do today yet I am sitting down and writing this - what a rebellious act [note the sarcasm]. Although I have done most of my itinerary, I nowhere near half way done. The day started with me being groggy and forcing myself to be happy but after a few errands, it seemed like my effort to be happy, okay and good was not even close to almost enough.

I was texting a friend asking if I can cry in public - for the very first time in history but she said: NO. I know crying can't resolve my problems nor can it make me feel better but I felt like I just had to release 'em tears. I hit me like lightning when I heard those words in that tone but I understand, it's my fault for being stupid.

For the past years, I have been joking with my friends about stupidity and the like and I think the joke's on me now. I always end up being the stupid one and as much as I want to say I don't know why, I do and it's because I am stupid. I am not capable of holding responsibility for anything. Maybe my brain isn't capable enough to do human things.

It's weird to notice how you're such a confident person but in just a blink of an eye, it's all gone and you find yourself crying in a corner blaming yourself for everything - even poverty.

I'm really lost right now, can someone please show me where to go?